just had to update somehow.actually wanted to update yesterday..somehow 2nd sister kept using.lols.
i not sure of what to update.yesterday yesterday, which is wednesday?
i went to sleep as early as 12am or 11.30am..bro is still at home and as normal..
woke up the moment handphone alarm rang..4.30am.
dono why that day, something different happened..i wake up.. i saw my brother's bed empty.
i went worried. search outside, sleepy,search for my bro, still thought he watched tv till sleep.
see, noone.
smsed him.. he said he at hospital..his friend passed away..
i was shocked.. i could say nothing to console him.. only asking him to take care..
around 5.45am. alarm rang again..i was awaken by the tv lights..saw at my brother bed, my brother was lying down there, watching the tv..
i asked him, how his friend passed away..he's a malay
he said, he was just sending his gf back home.. and on his way home, his motorbike hit a small stone.. then i dont remember what my bro said anything else, and he got into accident.. and his head hit the rock very hard.. and die..
and you know what my brother said that really make me feel sad..,
he said that somemore, i in the morning just talk with my that friend..
and from that expression, i can see he quite sad.. i dont know what to do in such situation..
sighs..since than, i always hope&pray for everyone i know, be it friends or relatives to be careful always wherever they are.. you may never know when death strike.
thus, this change my opinion of posting about "death."cos previously i did say i want to post bout it.. perhaps everything is fated..in addition, my bro's friend's friend recently also passed away.he's a chinese.. he died from motorbike too.. my bro said that he was in a very 'hard' place, or should i just simpler the terms that it simply means that, he was in a place that is full of ghosts.. i forgot what my bro said, but remember a little.. he just merely turn on his left side, to see whether not his friend is following behind.. end up somehow he got into an accident.. i think is when he turn infront he saw a car, then turn away panickly(?), then thathow he got into accident and died.. his head was crashed.. dono whether not thats the correct term..
sighs.. and when yesterday i returned home, i saw my bro's eyes red.. he cried.. its not shameful to cry okay.sighs. i wish i could console him.. but i think he is strong..
im worried for everyone since then.. wanting them to be safe always.. no matter who, friends or relatives.. everyone meant something to me..at least those i think is meant something to me.lols. jk.when my bro go out that night, i asked him to be careful.. nope, thats not the first time i asked him to be careful.. its just that its sounded more concerning.. more worried..

okay enough of that..talked with tE. told him i tell ppl i tio reject. he said its not really a reject. but just partly.. i say its still a reject and he say im stubborn. im worried that he sick, but today im still angry with him.. so nvr giv the medicine personally to him, in fact ask wen give to him instead..he said wb dont want me to be distracted, but i just refused to believe. till now.
lq say that wb perhaps tried to say hello to me in sch ytd, but i ignored.dono is true not, but i refused to believe too.till now.thou it make me happy a little while. and ytd, wb came for night study for the first time.lols.saw him, am happy. but i wont admit it that i still like him, cos i dont think so.. feelings come and go.. so im not sure.. in fact theres many thing im not sure of.
today o lvl prelim paper, mother tongue. oh, two words, GG.lols. is difficult. its not my mt teacher that set it, but one of the malay teacher in the school that set it.. sighs. my mt tcher on mc. hope she okay.
okay. i went to cp with lq. she ponned her remedial again. and again she never come to night study eventhough she promised last week that this week she will come.yea..right. nevermind.
went and lq has some stalkers of the day.i dont bother since i dont even know them. and then buy food and went home.rested, and woke up.bathed and eat, etc. went to cp to meet wen at 5.30pm which is supposed to be meeting her at 4.30pm.lol.if go out with me must know i will always be late de. so learn from those that is know me well enough yea.lols.
asked wen to ask elsie whether she want not. wen say maybe elsie not coming.so not sure, so never buy dao. reached school, elsie is like, why go cp never call me.lols.nah, noone fault.
oya today. something bad happened. and i was about to curse today's date, when i remember i cant.lols. the rice and some gravy dropped on my uniform and there's stain. angried, look at lq, who is just staring at me, i stand up and picked the spoon on my uniform, and threw it at the table which somehow 'reflected' and fell on lq's uniform. thus, her uniform also got the oil's stain. crapped with her about my 'theory'.lols. crapped till cp, till going home. but in bus, jiu quiet le.cos nothing much to crap about.
night study was okay.today mr mathematics tcher kept giving us worksheets. altgt there is around 6-8 worksheets to be done bfore he go thru. mr social studies tcher saw us doing maths hw, and was like quite angry. but he nvr show his anger one la.lols. and he say perhaps he would talk with the mr mathematics tcher.cos e-maths is not one of the 3 first subjects ma. so he cannot keep giving us this, cos we cant focus on the first 3 lo if like this. i know mr mathematics tcher cared, but can cared not to this extend ma.zzz.madness.
stayed till around 9.45pm cos mr krishnan in school.ohmy, he ordered pizza.and asked mr social studies tcher whether not he want any. mr social studies tcher reject of course.lols. saw some people there. but somehow didnt see the one i wan to see. perhaps the more you expect is the lesser the chance of seeing until.perhaps should just let the feelings come naturely ba.lol.
okat. thats that for today.quite long ba..
anw, i wan say that, those with vehicles, do be careful yea. and friends and relatives and family members, do be careful too.no matter what, i love those ppl i know. and do not want anything to happen to you guys.:D
aww, aint i sweet?lols. i seriously mean what i say.be careful. life is precious., so dont waste it.lol.okay im sleepy but want to watch the ' dont mess with the zohan' and am waiting for it to upload finish but 3rd sis want to use.so tink another day than watch ba.ohmy.today is such a tiring day.Dx i dono whether i could hang on not..

dear God, please give me the strength to pull thru this n lvl..
Loves,
SMBI

lastly, HAPPY 17TH BDAY AIMEI; MICHELLE CHEN!
may all ur dreams and wishes come true.. do ur best for ur Os.!i love you.. and lets jiayou k?love you always;D