Actually i wanted to give up on doing the songs thing, but i asked my friend, hazil. Credits to you la hazil(: thanks yea. now, my blog is alive with songs.(:(: damn happy.

anyway, i learnt to choose who i tell my probs. i dont wanna another problem surfacing after the other, so its best this way.although i know its my fault, but it doesnt mean you can just shove me aside. idk, i dont believe ur such a person. still, who knows its true, who knows its just my paranoia. so its better this way.i can share with those im close with. its better that way too.
no misunderstandings, no nothing. anyway, today, first thing, i okay with dear le!!!hahaha. it takes one to give in. and yea, im rly at fault this time round.
and then, f&n is fun. teachers had previous sec5 to help us. unfortunately we not having her lesson on monday.and then, chem, and ss. went cp to buy food,went home then, changed. bff and dearest went to play with niece and nephew.
went sch, as usual didnt hv the time to fall in the squad.end up thought that yk say fall in in half u, end up in muf tee. the moment he appear in class after attendance taking, i jiu say, u say fall in in half u, end up u in muftee. then he replied, saying, must standardise ma.

hmms, lets summarise la. im quite tired alr la.
didnt rly study.lol. quite crapping. then have a chat with auntie. rly pitied her. auntie, endure k?haha. though u wont be reading my blog,i just type it down. nothing is fair in this world. haha.
hmms, lets see. crapped with mr chong de wei. he injured his leg due to his very funny reason,and when i dont even intend to hurt him, he thought i would and try to defend his leg.lol. then when i call him, and he talking to others, i hit his thigh uh?is that wad it call?whatever. lol.he jiu pain.

hahahahaa...then we crapped a little more, jiu nd go for S U N D A Y briefing. yup. officers come. ahahaa. i will try my utmost best to get the badge. mark my words man.lol.
then jiu find kenny they all. most importantly kenny. then when finding, junior called senior, auntie. no respect. i jiu scold. very pekchek. sec2 like tat, sec4 also no respect. i wont let this repeat. and yk, nt serious enough. pardon me for saying this, but i must say okay.although i said alr and dont know u will come and read till but i just wanna type;
No matter how much you think you dont deserve the rank, and that the responsibility is too big for you, you are still a SI in the unit. No matter how badly you want to be a staff sergeant, you wont get it so easily, and it will be tedious since your record alrdy being stored at HQ. and rmb, you are given this role is because OC, TOs, CIs think you deserve to. And rmb what's your first reaction when you receive this promotion? You are so happy that you told zehong you dont care what prelims paper you fail so long you are promoted. Aint it that way? Me too, dont feel i do the unit proud, but nothing will change if we do nothing bout it. Losing respect from the cadets is one way. First you will lose respect, next they will climb over your head. By then, you can do nothing bout it. So since you have few more months before you officially step down, so just give your best shot and have no regrets.

anw, after i telling him off, he jiu dont bother me. from then i never talk to him. went to play hide and seek with wen and liqi.lol. cause take wen phoneand run lor. lol. end up, from me and liqi tgt as a team, it seems like i am being bullied later, in a F U N way.lol

after the hide and seek game, we went for pt. due to too much exhaustion from the hide and seek game, we ran only 3 rounds. nt bad leh. 3 rounds = 13 mins, 10 secs.lol.then we went for walking around the sch. slacked.
and i think this is the cause for the fun part.lol.i saw mr rahim, and asked him to hlp me, cause i think i sprained my ankle. he said turn upside down. lol. then dont understand either wad he mean la.then crapped lor. say i will fail his o lvl ss if he dont wan bandaged for me laa.. lol. then i too tired alr.
go bck canteen.wanna sit, then liqi and wen come to me. then liqi say u wan me help u upside down?then i gl, say okay lor. see if you can. lol. tot she only kidding. then she and wen become allie or ally?they went and chase me man. i alr leg pain.lol. then at canteen there, they chased me. then i sit down, then they kept forcing me. tot no ncc saw that time, but zijian alr saw.lol. then they say, eh siti, quick stand leh.if not larry come, then we jialat.and i was like , no strength alr la.then bo bian ,stand up.then walked to canteen. they still giv a chase lor.zz... then i sit at canteen floor, wen ask why. i say cause my butt gt gravity. lol. smth like tat. then they drag me to some place, lol, and sadly, RAPED me.so far i heard bout guys being raped by guys. like brothers or friends jokingly la.then me.. O.O 1st time sia.lol. then they want to rape me again sia. zz horrible. ohmy, its like giving birth la.. laughing no stop.lol. 2v1. wad u think. plus, im so small size lor.lol.and guess wad, its nt gonna end, cause, next week, they gonna rape me, physically, mentally... emotionally.and i think that it will continue.lol. just kidding.but yea.words cant explain how fun it is lor. we kept laughing non stop. and i made a new pet. geo-pet.lol. gt chem-pet, maths-pet.lol. its catergorised under sub-pet.lol.
geo will go: geo geo.. geooograppphyyyyy...~
lol. thats the cutest lor. and it thanks to wen can?she ask where her geo txtbk is. then i start my lameness and start to like finding pet lor.. ; here little geo geo.. where areyou?
lol. lameness. alright im off alrdy.
sat cant slp late...cause sun nd sibei early wake up. ntsure eating brkfast nt.and im off chionging for myf&n as well my O lvl subs(:
after wat mr rahim said abt i being the 1st 5N mly girl to top the sch and sgp, abit impossible, but i'll try la.and although rly im the only one mly girl for sec5, i mean mly girl studying mly.. i find a bit inspiration there.so wanna chiong. hope it would last and ican get gd result. alright gtg(:

Although there nothing really impossible, but this, i find, it totally impossible.SM,forget it.

Goodbye&goodnight,
SMBI

I'll continue to smile no matter whatever happens(: