Sometimes it's not whether you choose what you like, but is how you learn to like something you didnt choose.

well finally updating.haha. partially because tomorrow is F R I D A Y! haha. been looking forward to tomorrow. you dont know how i struggle through the week.lol. okay. abit exaggerate here. well, within one week so many things happened, and i wanna blog so many things. okay, guess i shall blog something at a time, so it wont worsened the current condition. yesterday just had an arguement with dear, but it doesnt seems like the normal one.i guess i went too far this time round.im really sorry, but i dont know how to make you realised im really am. i guess we really need to talk things out, if not, it will just get worser.no, it has never been ur fault in this relationship. you have always been the one who give in and suffer the most compared to me. im the one who always worsened things..no, i dont wan it to end. neither do i want it to be hanging nowhere like now. i want to talk. im sorry about just now.i shouldnt have treat you so coldly. I just had this weird feeling..sometimes i just wish, i wont have to imagine things so badim sorry. thats why i wanna talk toyou tomorrow, if its ever possible..i cant help saying, im sorry..

well actually, i only look forward to tomorrow is bcos, OWN PT.lol. then news passed, and at first need to wear full u. wa. enthusiasm dropped. lol. then, now know, need wear half u. then i was thinking, might as well wear full u. i look nicer in that sia.lol. but anyway, it doesnt matter. half u it is then.
oya, my o lvl mt result isnt good. i got b3. yea its an improvement. tcher said the paper is difficult too, so its nth bad. just tat i need to retake the whole of everything again. ZZ. friends said its wasted cause my oral is dist. okay. whatever. last yr still gt muhd to lead me.. now..idk.missed muhd...hope can catch up with him some day.

yup, maybe what liqi asked is coming true.
Is there any point of time in your relationship that both of you didnt sms or call each other?
the time is now.i did smsed him. he didnt reply cause burst alrdy.&it has been 2days since your last call.guess ur busy with anything that ur doing. its okay.not confirm things will be fine even if i miss you calling..even if you called.
It's silly of me. To keep thinking, rushing to the phone when it rings, to think that its you.
When i know and have the feeling that you're not going to call, at all.

Great.Next week full of test. Geo, Chem, Maths?,Phy.
common test on feb.madness.
CNY around the corner. &im falling sick soon?throat starts to hurt.headstart to spin.no, it doesnt matter anymore.
Sorry people, i wont be in a joyful mood as long this isnt settled. sorry for being selfish. i will try to be myself when im with friends.(:esp, GirlFs. and bcm, and when talking with kG.lol.i will try to be myself when im around everyone(:
thanks lyn, for the keychain. loveyou(:
Thanks wen,liqi,lyn for comforting me.
i wrote my thoughts in my diary cause its more convenient there than here.

till then,
Goodnight&Goodbye,
SMBI

Sometimes i wish,i knew what your thinking..
Sometimes i wish, i could be Edward Cullen.

Last but not least, im sorry&iloveyou.thats all i could say.