in a blink of an eye

hello people!let's blog!lol.
well, lets blog bout ytd.
hmms, breakfast.
was supposed to have 3 ppl and at an earlier timeslot.
however, ended up only 2 and started at a later timeslot.
when me & wen arrive, some of our juniors leaving alrdy.lol.
yup. brkfast at CP mac's.
guess who the 3rd person is.
that pig lo.lol. =X
baby la. told him already. numerous MISSED calls were given.
none answered, till i asked wen to call his house.lol.
very funny la. his brother answered, i think is a girl.
lol. talk to him. told him 8.15 le. coming or not.lol.
he rushed down to sch. lol. PIG.
still say put alarm clock at 6AM.wth.lol.
dont ask me why i dont wan personally call my baby's house.
its just the fear lo. his parents dont know. i dont know they at home or not. and none of them knew im a malay.
yea. he wasnt that late late.
and so went practising.
shout abit here and there. and, was encourage :D
and was told i wasnt chosen. D:
partly is my fault.bcos of what i said the day before. i shouldnt if i want the post so bad.
but i knew i couldnt get and couldnt be, thats why.
dont understand why i felt hurt. but i didnt show it. i hid it. very well.
i felt that i become more mature. dont show my emotions that openly. yea. i be more mature. finally(:
its just a disappointment.thats all. when i wanted to show my best.lol.
told jm. she was shocked. told jc. lol. said he like it la. whatever la. and being as he is, he says he is not. and that left only with 1 try out. lol. so need choose. so i made the decision easier by saying it the day before.
sorry jm. didnt mean to raise voice at ya. just need some time to sort my thinking out.
but wth, i want be emcee. ask wen, i did read it to her. my Eng not that bad alright.
and when i tot of it. they will always choose the Express people, thinking we, NAs, not gd enough or just cant make to the criteria. first thing, do they even give us the chance.
if such thing really happens, fk everything, i tell you.
i wont plus guarantee go for the inter-quiz.lol.
i already not gg, cause no further instructions were given also.
anw, skipped.- to the end of the parade.
asked jm, whether ** is attached. answer: should be no.
asked ian the same qtn : answer : no.
and asked the person : no. lol.
cant deny. his smile just so cute.lol.
so went to CP with baby and wen.
lol. GL session as always at KFC. finally. eat smth i long nvr eaten.
always other fast-food restaurant then KFC. so ate it(:
GL my baby(: yea. so is okay. is just for fun(:
lol.he lose out lo. 2 v 1. what can he do?
lol. i against him also win(: a world class debator.lol.
nah., he gave in i believe(: but nevertheless, i believe my points are strong too.(:

okay. totally no mood due to smth happen.
i should be happy. SHOULD be.
sigh.
idk what i want actually. really dont.
im searching for smth else. saw urs. really dont expect it.
maybe what they say is true afterall.
the more you want it to happen, or think bout it, it wont happen.
the more you dont want it to happen, or dont think bout it too much, it will happen.
body builder no more.
really a happy belated birthday to you my friend.
best wishes, and hope you'll get what you want.
lets be friends, thats what i want.
it seems totally impossible, iknow.
we hardly know each other.but wth.
nvrmd.
all i wanted is to make ppl happy,
to make those stress, less stress.
to be their friend. even if im not happy.
even if im on the verge of dying.

i start to regret my action.
my balancing time, between family, r/s, studies and friends are just so wrong.
just so improportion.
i wish i could turn back the time.
i wish Earth could just start off with 48hours per day.
and even if it does, it still wont be enough.
Humans are selfish being sometimes.

you are not that quiet.
the one im finding is. lol.
nt that loud. nt that quiet.lol.
some links i see, i saw urs.
the photo both wen & me saw, is urs.
and we thought is someone else.lol.
just dont look like you.lol.
enough of body builder. enough of all thise nonsense.
no more body builder. no more of ur name. till we be friends, than i shall say.
i will be.. in ur shadows..lol. no, not a stalker.
just an unknown person. till then.--

i hate irresponsible & un reasonable person.
yea, im unreasonable at times.
thats why i hate myself. i blamed myself.
argh!why this kind of feeling.
it so hard to smile right now.
dont even know why im feeling like this.
babe, knows the best. when im down, its really hard to make me smile.
esp, when im down alone.
the beats dont feel like its beating.
it may beat, but there's no feelings.
just empty beatings of my heart.

last, i dont like friends who have no trust in their own friends.
worst still, close friends.wth. -- the end

seriously, someone, tell me what i want. what i need.
cause i dont even know.

SMBI

editted :// 9.30pm
saw u. ytd. u were about to eat at the same place.
just didnt happen. cause too packed.
our Chemistry just seems to fade.lol
u were there. for the video taking.
this wont last. memories --

should i smile, and be friendlier from now on?& smile like i really mean so..
so i can smile to you.. and be friends perhaps.
or should i just be myself? never smile.
never smile doesnt mean im all time moody.
photography club should have been my CCA 4 years ago.
blinded. it was on friday too.
but if i chosen photography. doesnt mean i will be friends with u.
nw then i being friends with 'C'. nt close, nt gd. just friends.

his smile is a signature man.lol

alright im done. this is just thinking too much on my side.
i'll be okay. after some crapping.lol.

kG want call IMH for me. :'( SADIST me.lol.
alright then. he is busy now. should be calling.
dont miss me alright readers?escape once , will escape twice.
wont be blogging so often then xD

1 line is correct, the others are not. see whether u can guess dao nt.
till, then, GD nite. sweet dreams(:

SMBI

editted: // 11pm

Changing blogskin soon
as much as i like this blogskin,
gotta change it. just tooo....
smth just nt right somehow, somewhere.
and when its not right, it will go messy.
so thats that. and im off from blogging.
IMH people coming.lol. JK
gtg. gotta fill my mind with things so i wont think too much.
but certainly, that's impossible(:

thinking too much has become my middle name.lol
AS IF--