random post=/

Heck care-ing what to continue the previous post.
really dont know what to add on either.
even if know, i just dont feel like saying it.
cause i dont feel happy.
i dont have the mood to do so..
nowadays. im just tired.
really. everything. tired of everything.
studies wont let us rest.
examinations just keep on pressurising.
naggings from teachers just add on and on.
comparison since last time still wont end, by the same teacher.
and compare to China. and this week heard till lot of china things.
just now buy cupwalker also china. -.- i mean as in the plastic thingy.
problems, be it r/s, f/s or k/s, still wont end.
though is not my business, your my blood and my closest kin.
i ownt want anything bad to happen to you. just wanna you to be wiser,please?
at any point, i can break down and cry. but its useless.
if my absence can solve all the problems, i wont hesitate to make myself no longer existed.
stupid hallucinations worsen things around.
the truth hurts.
not after one another problem come and stay, waiting to be solved.
i feel like running away. but it wont help but worsen things.
i hate to hurt people.
it just hurts to have this kind of thing going through your life, over and over again.
jealousy.. it wont get me anywhere. wont get anyone anywhere.
dislikes? negative comments, wont make you like the person any better.
it is so hard to smile..how am i suppose to focus?
how am i suppose to carry on my things?life is a mess.
i really wish i could end it.. destroy it.but what for?
been so long since i last took photo of myself.oya. phone spoilt. -.-
been so long since i last listen to chinese songs.oya. phone spoilt.
why couldnt this year be a year without problems?
why ? why ?/ why????
why such things are happening ? it hurts to see.. such important year is being disturbed by some minor stuffs which is due to our own actions...

this is a random post.
stupid hallucinations. i wont bother.
yeA. body builder found the heart in it.
yea. dao-er found its companion.
yea. the SITI has not found the peace in the country.-.-
i really need someone...
guess me again i guess?

i hate restrictions baby. i really do..
whats next? you being grounded?i cant take it.
you cant call as usual.i scare you just wont bother anymore.
we can only see each other 5 days per week. maybe 6 or 7.
people say quite good le..yea. maybe.
1 or 2 more days may seem impossible.cause unless going out or not.
or group study.
if not we see each other.. as classmates.. as couple.. but cant act like one.
restrictions...
its been such a long time since i last sleep in your arms on long bus rides baby.
&im sorry for today...

guess i will be by myself facing these problems.
cant take it, break down.
im born alone in this world, fyi.
noone can really understand. but just know.
and once they know. they can do nothing bout it.
im hungry. but i dont feel like eating yet.
i havent had proper meal since recess. in fact since morning.
eat abit here and there, and im deadly hungry.
dont know should eat not.
kept playing bejeweled blitz.
can play it for the whole day..madness strikes--
cant simply top it. cause my mind is not on the right track. sheesh.
gotta go.

Nothing is the same anymore.
Your signature smile..fades..
today is really aint a good day..
just aint one of the best.im sorry.
i got myself to blame.
tired.
guess i better eat.-.-
SMBI