today

hmms, previous post, saying that how i wish i need not go to school.
guess what. i nearly dont need so.lol
it is so because, i overslept. and i woke up nearly 7am; 6.56am,ZZZ
actually i woke up at 5am. wide awake. den i went back to slp.
wake up 5.30am. then slp. till 6.56am.lol
of cos i went to school and got late. but nvrmd. tot i only sec5. den see got honey and weiliang there.lol.
then i bring maths textbk for nthg sia.
wtf. bring also no time to revise. end up i do lor. i apply any formula i know.
all i know i didnt get to do qtn 8.wth.
f&n. i really scaredcause not finish. end up mrs foo say mon need to hand in. i'll try. thats for sure.
after remedial. took attendance. CLDDS 'borrowed' our classroom to see their act.
okaylo.i read new moon abit then jiu try to fall aslp after they go.
cant take it. down with flu.wth.
did try to slp. manage to slp abit only.
very inconvenient though.
then there's this NPCC junior.
poning np la. if not he wont kept walking at 5B there and see the parade. and when i walked to the canteen, he wont for one second head come out, and try to hide himself when i walking past. in the end, i saw him at the side of my eye. stupid.
dare do,dare face it la.coward.
anw, was walking down to see body builder. lol. nah...
then saw kG. lol.. and the whole ncc..
and they were training.. and red cross were training..
and np, were.... training?lol.not for me.
i was sick. totally no mood for anyting lo.
actually i have withdrawn from the post..
told ms hani and told junmin. however, the others dont know.
so, yea, still practised with jc, jm and me.
ehh.. arthur helping us.
and yea. so fun lor. ehh, with JC leh.*hint hint*
lol. no la. just that just now got this two girls, kept... lol. nvrmd. later say.
so, in few hours time, the training resume. and im dead tired.

just wish i would not need to lie..
just wish u could understand..
just wish...
if theres nthg that need to end, i wont worry.
however, everything has to end,someday, somehow.
everything. even if true love. even if till death do us apart,
death is the thing that brings an end to it, to everything..
everyone is born alone. they are brought by their parents to this world, yes.
and some said, we are born with our other half.
but, unless we are being born as a triplet or twins, or quadreplets,etc.,we are being born alone.
so eating alone, being alone, is norm.
after sometime practicing this sch anni. parades with other CCAs.
esp NCC. i think that there's more than just meets the eyes.
lol. there could be some inconsiderate assholes inside, but doesnt mean all are.
just like that asshole who is being very racist.
im really the minority in class. doesnt mean you have the fucking rights to say bout me. saying me aint gonna make you any fucking better. and yes! noone really understand what it felt like to be insulted.
its really very fun, and i hope this experience wont have to end.
i really appreciate those who have helped me and the others in this sch anni. parades.
really look forward to more of it.
today's mood wasnt really that gd. just so sick, dont know why or how.
and you dont even know.what to expect. what to say. you werent there.

anw thats random. well not all of it.
and so here's how the story begins.
was practicing the RSM shouting. due to some adjustments being made.
and let's just name this guy, C.
i was standing beside C. for RSM.shouting with JM by my side.
1st water break.
2 girls. A&B says, " C C. hi.*giggles away"
C: *smile, wave hi.
and so it carried on. and till the end.
and when JM wanna ask C whether are there anymore practices, C ignore, perhaps cant hear. but rushing back to his CCA. its okay.
and A&B, kept calling C's name.
no, im not jealous, and i wont be. cause C is not body builder.
in fact im happy that i can talk to C.(:
however, seeing A&B, really reminds me of myself.
like how juniors fancied seniors. like how i would react last time.lol.
but yea, i didnt go to that extend. maybe i should, so who knows i could be with one of them?lol. JK.
but at the same time, they like AA-ing. no offence.
so maybe last time i like that too? just not that obvious.? o.O
and in conclusion, they waited for him. for idk how long. --- the end.

anw, i dont know what relation or friendship they shared, and i wouldn't wanna know. cause i ask JM whether A&B are her classmates, as she & C are classmates, she shaked her head. must be juniors cause seniors are only sec5 and i can recognise their faces(: so the end.
yep. gonna read new moon and off to bed preparing for tmr.
breakfast. and off to training. lol.

bob the builder, can we fix it?
bob the builder yes we can!
lol.

gd nite all.
loveyou(:
SMBI

Maybe in this case,
I'm Edward Cullen.
Your Bella Swan.

Why do i just get the impression i know of certain things,
&thus, ended up disappointed.
No, if this is a power i obtained for being me,
I gladly accept. i dont regret.
or maybe i just know you too much,
to expect something more.
so i just need not expect more already la?
just expect what i can expect.
for this case,
Expect the Unexpected wont exist.

Im sorry for everything still.