the end, perhaps

life's a bore nowadays. and you guys, if there are probably, gonna see more of this often..

life's a bore. blog is dead.
this may be the end.. this may be the last post..
i dont see the reason of blogging, when there's nth to blog..
when there's noone seeing..
i'll be back eventually.. when i finally find my true self..
when i live my life my way..
so i'll just write all the things in my sweet sweet little diary..
so as the last post, gonna blog wad i wanna.
though it may be dead, officially or not, this blog wont be close down.
i dont friggin' care what other people say bout consuming space.
thats ur freaking prob, man. i'll keep it here, cause i like it.
and i'll remove it when i'm back, next time.
i love my friends, all. all are unique in their own ways..
just the differences between friends and close friends, are that, i share some kind of bond with the close ones.. we understand each other..
i dont have much close friends, thats why when i see one drift apart, it hurts..
but i know why.
its either me or other reasons. but for my current state,
i could not be bother bout f/s probs, or r/s probs.
goes well, goes well. not, then no. what else can i do? solve them takes time.
and i only got time for studies.
i will not make time difficult for others alrdy. make their life difficult = making mine difficult.
that goes the same for me and boyf. we always argue.
and is always the same thing. i think i roughly knows alrdy..so i wont argue, or pursue anything anymore.. just wanna have a simple r/s with him.. afterall, i do want us to last(:
i gonna save money. yes. i know i owe alot of people alot of gifts. i will be giving. not now. i will save money and buy. bff, you are really not forgotten k?
actually, i had enough.. tired of everything..
too much of paranoia.. hate it..
envy other r/s .. envy what they can have what i want..
but i will eventually have what i want..cause i will work hard to get it..
the next time i come back, i wont be the same..
i wanna socialize.. have many friends..

you know what?i've come across a person who says friends come and go.
how true the statement is. but isnt the person one of them?she didnt befriend with them because they come and go.. well, she too come and go right?
and you know whats so irritating above it all?
she came to talk to you, like some friendly friend, whereas actually she finding STUPID things to do, to let time pass,so that the right time will come for her to WEBCAM with her 24yrs old boyf..
and then,she friggin' ignores you..
and thats so friggin' irrtating..

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thr. i said it.
till then people. my last night. my last post.
it hard to bid gdbye. but it's worth it.
i'll be back.i promise.

Finally,
last and not least,
With much love, as always,
SMBI -- off to eat supper and do coursework(:
(&its 1.34am. not i typed slow. too engrossed in playing games(: )