first day of term 3(:

had lotsa to blog bout actually.. when i was alone, kept thinking of things to blog, and its lots okaY!
hmms, first, i just find that my blog music is super COOL(: although noone see it yet,hear it yet.. i know cause i havent announce it officially..
when they see my previous url and interested to know bout my this blog then i'll give. if not, i know how unvisited my blog is. but its okay. i can blog all i wanna (:
first thing first, today i felt really happy.
dont ask me why, i too have no idea why so.
hmms, maybe it just a satisfaction feeling that one felt after achieveing something great, to herself. i did my assignments in class, when the teacher not in class(: cheers for SITI!(: never did it before, esp for fnn(:then it was mt time. tcher practising us for oral. cause its on 14july.. hoping baby's is on 13th july, so baby can fetch me from compassvale sec. hees! too reliant on baby's presence.. last yr was at peihwa's n lvl then at compassvale.. now o lvl at compassvale.. hmms, then after that receive text from baby saying that there's el remedial. called bff, she went home as soon as the bell rang. WHOOSH*lol.
then bought water and tidbits with heying. talked bout someone.. heehees. never gonna end la(: anw, during el, somehow from actually she want to issue out vocabulary worksheets for us to do, end up become newspaper reflection. easy!yep. mdm YAP was hilarious can?tot she nvr notice liqi nvr come. at first she didnt la. then she asked joanna who sit beside you? then say liqi. she was like so surprised la. huh liqi of all people?lol.then until 3plus. take bus to compass. ate ban mian with B. shared la. separate bowls la. damn full le.. plus weather so nice.. bought food for nephew and bro. lrt-ed home after buying ding ding candy.. addicted to it le..
ohmy!i pinched baby because was joking around. my god!his arm blue black la.. and B says its okay.. how can okay sia.. zz
but B strong.. i believe him when he said okay means okay.
weian said that there are soccer match against the sec4Express. cant wait sia. but on sat. me and baby is gg out on Sat. i want he to play. recent match against them lost, cause not enough people. i want baby to play. to win them. but this time round like i force him to play instead of asking him not to. i just want them to win the sec4Express. but if baby play will be sticky and smelly. *pi-ew. lol. how to go out like that?and once B go home to bath, B cant go out de.. how how how?dont know la. when the time comes, then shall say;) cant wait to watch transformers 2: revenge of the fallen with B.. on Sat.. then after lrt home, B go for his A maths tuition while i come online. now, the weather is so comforting, i feel like sleeping.. heh!
oya. liqi went home and also like dont know got el remedial. lol.

now for my thoughts session based on the words i thought of.
Friend
i thought i have him as my friend. i thought i had. and to think i compare him with my boyfriend. tsk. stupid me. now that he's attached, he treat me like im invisible. like im not his friend at the first place. with this, i regret participarting in the ***role for that period of time. whatever. now i know how that someone felt like. being happy to have someone as friend, but that someone dont felt the same at all. should i say immature? or typical? maybe that's your type. i dont have comments bout that. maybe my expectations too high. heh. no, im not saying im special. not in any ways. just hate it the way he look at me, like im some enemy of his. well,fret not. he's not a friend of mine either. i the sort treat ppl the way they treat me. aint that fair? dont worry. next time i see you, i save you from feeling anxiety aite? i pretend we dont know each other. no more friendly hellos or goodbyes. so much for being friendly, siti. your friendliness are just a nuisance to him. well to him only,not to all, i guess. well, the happy moments are still kept. but it's best to forget all, so not to hold any hopes anymore. nice knowing you. once. not anymore. siti learnt something. not to be friendly to anyone anyhow, esp boyf. juniors or friends. they may just dont think it's friendly but nuisance. next, your may be the big 'hunk' or 'star' in the school, i dont give a damn aite. no matter how big you are, you are still a human being. -.- alright enough bout this.(:

Jealousy
this world, born with it are different emotions. and one of them is jealousy without any doubt. i do felt jealous when i see that other normal human beings are getting the things that they want easily. let's just say, they are born with a silver spoon in their mouth. however,sometimes this jealousy make me felt that they dont deserve it, cause they are not being humble of what they have. and kept thinking that it wont last, their wealth. for all will go hocus pocus as time pass. in addition, i felt that they dont deserve it because they dont do anything bout it to deserve it. like being a nice person. furthermore, i just think that they push their luck too far. however, this are my point of views. my thoughts when im jealous. only God will give them what they deserve. nothing will last forever. even true love. as Death will do the true lovers apart, eventually. what more bout wealth. you cant bring it when you die. (: siti learnt that in order to get what she wants, she must earn it instead of being jealous of others who with intention or not to show off their wealth as it wont help her to get what she wants. just matter of time. and hard work will be paid off eventually.(:Siti, you can start from now, by saving some of your money.

Love
Love, the one and only lovely word on Earth. the word that completely describes the feeling of being in love.. however, they says love isnt a fair game. love is a complicated thing.. love is sweet when started, bitter when end.. so why on earth people still fall in love?cause its Fate that brought them together be it whether they are the other's better half or not. it is fated for us to learn things through this complicated ,one, 4 alphabets word.however, love is a feeling that one must not treat as lightly as a feather, cause once you let go, dont ever look back and shed those tears.. dont look back once you take a step forward. dont regret your decision. i read upon one sentence. one truly regret when one cried. so dont ever cry. but to me, emotions are hard to control. let go when you think you had enough. cry, dont lead yourself to depression. heh!no link to topic. love, a lovable and detestable word at the same time due to it's advantages and disadvantages it brought to humans. love, is an undescribe-able feeling. that's why i had difficulty typing bout it. i can simply put i love my baby so much. but noone know how deep my love for baby is, cause it is indescribe-able.

alright. for now that is. i will rant more next time(:
i prefer it this way, when noone knew bout my blog. heh!security...
but it wont last.. sooner or later ppl will read upon it(:heh.
my blog my say..
oh. i argued with lyk today -.-

gotta go. hws time. siti can begin to focus:D

With much love,
SMBI