horrible days

Seriously, as times flies, its getting tougher.
More pressure. More nags. More stress.. And I'm not the sort that can handle with stress easily. Life sucks after i say im happy. tsk. am angry for the past 3 days. dont understand why either. Red day has definitely passed. Pity baby. He dont deserve it. He dont deserve me. In fact, he deserve someone better. Just not me. I thought i am the one who is suffering with all the problems, but he suffered more than me. ! despicable? just doesnt suits him.. i know what it means.. he just too good for that. went blog hopping after such a horrible day with a terrible tcher. what a HORRID day. !
saw all the lovely-dovely couples.. make me jealous. And do bear in mind, Jealousy kills. i was reminded of me and baby. my heart aches when i reminded the way i talked to him, scolded him, just because he ignored me, say things that hurts me. i hurt him more than he hurt me, when he dont even intend to. i was pushing him to the end.. i dont deserve him. he deserve better. sigh. im sorry baby. really am.
i love my baby. i really do. for the past 10 months, i loved him and only him. noone else but him, (as in guys, boyf those kind, aside from friends, getit?no?then nvrmd.)
B, i promised this to you. i'll try and control my temper. no more venting. more understanding. i love you. no more harsh words unless just kidding. im sorry baby.. im so sorry.. you meant everything to me!
Sometimes, i begin to wonder whether im the sort that once let go, then begin to regret that i've let go. tsk!

alright. enough lovely stuffs. baby forgave me. we gg out tmr!!yippes!after sch and his cca.gona watch Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen;) Again for ME!SuperB! today is such a horrible day! and i hate it the most!stupid tcher gave me attitude. wtf. quick la. quickly have the Booster program. i dont want see your face. i want see other tcher's face. I dont need ur friggin' bad attitude if thats how you wanna teach man. i hope that somehow God just made you somehow sick. *evil laughter. you dont know how horrible it is. it's certainly not fun lo. tcher laughed at his own joke. we sian diao. LOL.
i hate him. but i hate myself more for being so lousy. gotta buck up. nomore excuses siti. i'll buck up. now. but can kiss gdbye to filessssss... :D

i've tried my best. th least you can do, is support. not to keep on pressurising us, me. i used to have no probs with you. now, tons. youre basically just bias. thats all.
how i wish mr n will just teach us..

told B. next time, got such lesson like this, remind me to reconsider. so i wont be stress out. so pimples wont come out. so i no nd to be suan. so my time wont be wasted. -- your right. waste time. cause you just take your own time too.

baby, my boy. i love you lotts.!(:
yours truly.

SMBI