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What am i supposed to say? Im speechless. I really dont know what to do now.
One whole day without your smses or calls. Nothing from you at all. Yesterday you told me your reason, i believe. Cause i dont want any arguements or anything. But today, nothing from you at all. Was supposed to go out and study, but how to? You dont even tell me you can or not.
I sent you that message. Thus, i dont know whats our status? Seriously, I've had enough of being the one on the waiting list. Always, without fail, Im the one who is worried for you. At least, i didnt went MIA or smth. I charged my phone everyday or every time its low batt. So that people can contact me, so that you wont worried for me.
Whatever it is, clear it out tomorrow then. Let's hope I wont shed any tears.
Anyway, Siti has turned over a new leaf, if that is the proper term. Siti wanna be the new one. Easier said than done, and Action speaks louder than words. It wont be easy cause i tried it before. And each time i tried, my attitude gets worser and worser.
I thought it through. And all i gotta do is be more happy. Think things the positive way, not negative.(:
& i thought of it. What if I changed and everything around me (except for family), i lose them.? Boyfriend, Friends, and best friends? What would i do? It Wont be easy of course. I would cry, but i need to get up on my feet ASAP. Cause im strong(:
lol. continue later. going midnight soon. and im gonna go do my maths hw..lol =X
before the midnight came, and i knew kenny wont come and see this, but,
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY KENNY(:
i love you, my friend. i wish time would stop when we were Retard and Nerd last time.. I wish we could be just like last time..
Lol. his bday, but i was the one who was making the wishes. lol. thats what i want la.
i didnt get to make wishes this yr, cause no bday cake =.= like, seriously..
gonna pray hard.. tmr Os mt result come out.. hopefully, A1 or A2.. PLEASE.
Last but not least, happy 18th bday tse ee.. (:
so long nvr call me.. hmms.
iloveyou, yes, i still do.. till the time we shall bid goodbye..
Yours truly