sudden turn of events..

Im gonna blog bout it, though there aint any reader.. HA. idc at all.
anyway. missing my D and BFF.. they are at the chalet.. tuition chalet..
oh well. anw, saw till jaslin&co. just now at CP. then saw till BFF and D. k, this is what i call FATE:D cause if i hasnt chose to go cp, if they had not come at the right timing, we wont be meeting le, right? So, the BFFs get to see the new hair each other. LOL. alright, enough bout today for now. lets proceed bout 12th Nov 2009.

12th Nov 2009
it started out with a surprise. not from me. though i had planned to fetch him and give him surprises - fetch him, and the way i dress. HAHA. but he went out already, and waited for me instead.
he saw me, he's happy. it started out with a hug. didnt immediately went to compass. we talked, talked real long. unfortunately, we didnt talk all things out.. so i hugged him. even when he wanted to look at me, i still hug him. tears were on verge of falling, but i hold them back, cause i didnt want any tears on that day, so we took pictures before heading off to vivocity. both of us were so happy. just too happy. im happy the way i dressed, i looked, my hair looked, the one i was being with. simply said, i was happy with everything on 12th nov 2009. it is seems that we are gonna have a happy day.
we watched jennifer's body. despite how matured i try to dress or just dress without in sch u or anything, i guess height is still the problem . they still checked our ICs. even before entering. ohwell.
the movie was so-so. 3 out of 5, i would say. he more scared then me i suppose. haha. kinda amazing. i could expect the sorta outcome next, so not really scared. it all depends on the background sounds. the show was average, but the starting was unique to me. started with a flashback. haha. it perhaps would have been great if it was my first nc16 movie, ba? haha. anw, we headed to plaza sing next, cause apparently, we didnt buy anything from vivo. thinking that we gonna eat at Swensen, we thought of heading to plaza sing awhile, buy some stuffs, head back sk for sunset and Swensen for dinner. saw serene there. next thing i know, received a text from her, congrating us for patching back. -.- we didnt . so far for now, wont be. just like he said, best friends. best friends when only, it just the two of us. of course he cant be compared to my bff, he perhaps, the second. bff is always the first. and undeniably, family comes first.
bought a lip gloss from Etude house. bought something and have a fluffy pen for free. we agreed to 50-50 the cost. unexpectedly, we argued. and i dare say this time its not my fault. really am fucked up. i cried my eyes out. really am tired. after a long time, he apologised. he said : i finally know what i want. is you. but i just need time.
we both agreed that we both need time. ya. i'll be waiting then. waiting for his answer. return his necklace and ring back. nv intend to return anything to him, but just realised that, the more i kept it, the more i will think of him. the past one month i thought of him almost everyday. does he? he seemed move on. i guess when someone already moving on, i should not held that person back,cause i end up hurt cause the person is determined to move on.
we didnt wanna talk bout it anymore . but till today, 13th nov, i still ponder on the cause of the arguement on a simple date. it has always been the issue even when we were together. he bought for me the Essential shampoo and conditioner. 550ml one. both. i bought the treatment and a sunsilk lotion for hair. kinda useful i guess. he fulfilled his promises. breaking dawn and shampoo(: love him. atleast some promises he uphold them.. headed home. otw, i got leg cramp. now i having left hand cramp. wtf. haha. guess its the weather. cold weather. on the bus we took pictures. haha. the flash was on, and my face look white. didnt expect it though. haha. yep, the pictures were better when theres flash, like seriously.
at the void deck, i couldnt bear to let go. dont ask me why though. i just kept hugging him, cause i dont want to let go. well, didnt want. yes, we kissed. perhaps the last. he promised me smth. promised to msg me. end up there's only 2 msgs from him today. and is at night . and is only when i msged him first. wow.
Another promise made, Another broken promise. i knew it was coming.
im confused now. really am. i put aside the thought of body builder from my mind, my heart. cause he dont felt the same to me, even if i say i love him. but us? you got me all confused up. i suppose so. if its a game, lets play. i dont wanna deceive anyone. but if i am, i'll be deceiving myself first.
its a lovegame.
now, iloveyou. do you?
i really wished its just like the beginning of 12th nov 2009. when you surprised me by a hug.
i will upload the pictures, when i received my thumbdrive back from him.
yes, hes the one who is the most sweetest to me, of all my boyf. and yet the most deepest wound. Ever.
i've received my breaking dawn. due to long time nv read, i read the last chapter of Eclipse to catch up. now im at chapter 2 of breaking dawn.
wanted to play audition, but no mood. anyway, today headed down to little india, with mom and nephew. i ate thosai masala and apple aloevera for drink. my mom ate paper thosai and tea. end up, i didnt finish it. guess no appetite. lately i hasnt had a good appetite.. hmms.
okay. now i guess im off from here.

i used to lookforward to 12th nov 09. and time flies, as the date approaches, i just wanna get it done and over with. but now, im somehow glad we went through it. im glad that i went out with you. cause perhaps it will be the last ba. perhaps.. perhaps, perhaps..
am surprised that a friend of mine gave such approval. wow. JEALOUS -- ha ha ha.
am busy. tomorrow i gg to sch for open house, alone. cause bff and d are at chalet. oh well. haha.
sunday, bball session with my beloved 5th batch:D
monday gg out with BFF! Starbucks!! haha. but but but, this time round, my belongings with me:D
16th - 19th nov , you gonna be away. for camp. worried, but i do hope you will have fun. i do love you. take care, hao pengyou. wo de airen, wo de nan ren.
so far, yet so close. by heart. it wont last, but let it be for now.

this is my heartfelt post. no offence to anyone, esp you, piggy. :D loveyou. in all sort of ways...

tired. gonna continue reading my breaking dawn. the interest is rising again.. ;)
goodnight and goodbye to all
#0048hrs.

Love Justify Happiness..
(in my opinion that is...)

Yours truly...