wish

i dont really know whether i should blog bout this or not? cause this is just my assumption.
but this assumption could just destroy a friendship that i treasure and cherish very much..
yea, just me treasure & cherish. the other party, i dont really know whats the friendship to him...

ever since 31st december 2009, ive been haunted by this feeling.. misses someone.
i miss his smile, his voice, his laughter.. almost everything about him..
and i wish upon a star, and really hope God would make my wish come true.. that i could meet him somewhere near my house, since he's already somehow or rather knew where i lived..
please. i miss him. even as a friend. i really do.

im a weakling. say it people. i easily treasure friendship just because i could get along with that person. but who knows whats its like to that person. perhaps even nothing. perhaps, he dont even remember me, what more misses me..

saying bout this. ive just come to realised. ive been fooled. lied to. friendship strained. no way back. just getting strained. and i decided on something i never thought i would be..
ive decided to let it go. if people dont treasure or cherish you the way you treasure them, whats the point, yes? you just wasting the time, space and effort. guess its best to let it be as it is. no matter how i really cant bear to let it be.. whatever man.
new year, yet i feeling so down. _|_ man.

2010 or 2009, its just doesnt make any difference anymore. yes. ive realised this, when i was still living in the shadows of last year. why are celebrating, when each year passed, its sooner to our death?-.- the irony.

came across kg's blog. found the song is nice. haha. yea, whatever song he's listening or recommend, is always nice. he's not my song updater for nothing.. well, thats what i thought he was :D now, maybe still. through his blog? haha. we hardly chat already 0: ohmy. what can i do? time just catches up with everyone..

God please make my wish come true..
God please answer my prayer..
Let him come home safely tomorrow night.. i'll be waiting..
ive waited, and i'll be waiting still (:
imissyou..

i miss luqman.. , zhipeng, and, j
&of course, many others (:

gotta go. bball tmr. really looking forward to it, cause previous session is damn fun, esp the ending part. where it starts to drizzle and we still carried on(:

goodnight.
have a beautiful nightmare, y'all (:

Yours truly.