rare

hello earthlings. im back (:
you know. something weird kinda happened. regarding my previous post aye,
you know im good with words, and that i could be good in profanities or words when describing bout it. but i just discovered a new and funky yet rare way to describe my feelings.
i make them seems like a poem,(?) or something. its fun cause its cracking my brain cells,
and got them working :)

For example..;

©All my wrath,
All my anger,
I penned all of them down,
Into this big letter.
Tryna sound poetic,
Hell no, I'm not pathetic.
Wanna make it sound rhythm-atic,
Well, isn't it abit problematic?© SM's AmyL

it's copyrighted of course :D By me la. duh. hahaa.
hell, dont it seems good? hahaha. there's more of it actually.
anyway, i wanna blog bout something or two. actually alot, after reading my bff's blog. but i will blog bout it another time or when i can remember or free.
what i wanna blog is about something that happened to me before i start to blog bout my day.
you know how rare the occurrences are when you sleep and dreamt that you are crying, when you woke up from it, you realised you are crying too. i experienced this in my life. in fact i can vaguely recalled that it happened rarely in my life.
and usually when this kind of thing happened, usually its dreams that concerns family or the saddest thing in life. well for me, its family of course. the last time i cried, is cause of my mom i believe.
anyway, it happened again. the first time this year. i dreamt that my 1stsister wanted to hand me over to the authorities for child abuse. and i felt damn regret and remorseful after explaining to her. i knew i was wrong. yet i tried and blame my niece. B**** huh. the whole family like shuns me out. even my bro gf's when she is there. its like there's no second chance. and it felt so damn f-real.i cried. cried damn good. i felt like there's no more family for me. even when my brother came back (inthedream) from work and asked my mom, he came to my and somehow said, " hey amy. grats, your sister wants to hand you over to the authorities" weird isn't it.? he spoke to me in English when he could in Malay. and how weird can dreams get? He called me Amy. so far, noone in my family knows Amy is me. Damn i cried. i knew that was the end for me. so i woke up. Realising i had doze off with my mom, i checked the time. 6.30am. i woke up and realised my eyes, they are wet. Upon knowing i had a nightmare, i still cried in reality itself. Cause it felt damn real. and i dont want it to happen. not that im scared to be handed over to the authorities (one should be responsible for their actions right), but idw to treat my niece and nephew like that. its bcos of me (inthedream) that everyone in my family cant meet my niece and nephew anymore. Everyone is against me. you need not to literally have the world to be against you to feel that the world doesn't need you. you just need your loved ones, like family to be against you to feel so. dammit, is all i could say.
after crying, i dozed off in the nice weather. after which, mom woked me up and off we went to little india for market after getting ready. ate lunch and HSH. Slept in for quite a few hours... Damn the weather damn good. haha.
Asked mom, why would we still cry after knowing that we cried in the dream. She said, it could be because its too saddening. thats why cant control..Sigh.
oya, me and mom brilliances. lol, actually is plain lazy and too full. but hahaa, we alighted at hougang station and board 161 just bcos it stop right infront of my house stop. Damn, we are good. LOL.
Oya, at Tekka Market there, there this one Indian restaurant ahh.. I just want to recommend the lemon juice. Damn nice lor. Is like if you feel too sick of the food right, just a sip and the feeling disappear. haha. and guess what, is 1 dollar! cheap right?! Other places all those is like 2dollar plus plus plus tsk. hahaha. and its quantity ah? like all those tehtarik de cups. damn nice. Serve with straw (:

k, im done. hopefully each post will start with the poem or smth that seems like it.
its 920pm now, and off i went to clear my room :D

how i wish you would be there to watch the movie with me, D/DA):

AmyLerman